Glad that i have this little corner of mine to let me vent out my frustration, upset-ness, angry-ness as well as share my happiness.
Today, i got no clue what trigger the fire between me and my boss. All started with, i drop him an email telling him i will be working from another office. All these while, he is ok if we were to work from another office. But today...i receive an sarcastic email from him saying that if i am having intention to move to new job, then we do not need to talk about this. HUH? What? Talk what??
So i get piss off and replied his email saying that as of now, i have NO intention to move on to any new job, BUT, if he wants me to move out from his team, then i am OK! And instead of confronting me, he spoke to another manager of him and that manager become our messenger and break the ice and put off the fire between me and my boss. So i called my boss per his request, and he apologies to me saying he gets frustrated over on other issue, and not on me, and he doesn't mean to send out that email....Well, what can i do. I just say "ok". For those who know mandarin, 覆水难收 (spilled water can't be collected back), and whatever that said out which hurt people, no matter how many sorryssssssssss you said, it's still there. I told myself no point cried over spilled milk. ok...life move on...
In the afternoon, got an email from boss asking all of us to do some update. And the busy body me told him that actually we have one file in our shared folder. And for don't know what reason, he want to grumble on me to another person, he typed the message in my IM screen. The message doesn't seems to me, it sounds like he is typing to someone and saying that i always give negative feedback when he ask us to do something. Oh well well..lesson learn in hard way, NEVER and EVER be BUSY BODY. But, to be professional, i act as if i don't see the message and act dumb and offer help to consolidate the data for him.
And at this moment, when i get time to sit down and think over what happened on me today, i feel it's time for me to move on. Since he sees the messages from me at negative way, no point for me to keep working with him, the trust is not there anymore. I recalled back...i offer my help to consolidate data for him few times, and this is what i get in return. This is what he think about me. Why can't he put thing at positive way. When i told him we have data in shared point, why can't he just ask me whether are those data up to date? Why he needs to think that i refuse to do for him? Sometimes when he ask us to do some update, i will ask for a standard format, so that all of us in sync, so probably i am too busy body and he thought i reluctant to do and ask for excuses. I can't understand him. Maybe this is our communication gap or we are not meant to work together.
And from today onwards, i will keep QUIET and do whatever thing he wants WITHOUT asking for more info. I feel upset, down, frustrated, helpless, hopeless......but glad that i have 2 sweetheart at home to cheer me up. Both of them are in their lala-land. Gosh, today is mid-autumn festival and it's raining heavily out there, see, GOD also cry for me. Thank you GOD, at least u hear me!
