Happy 6th Anniversary

Time flies.....has been dating with him for almost 12 yrs and legally married for 6 yrs!!

Happy 6th Anniversary to me and my dearest Bb!!

My biggest fear for now...

Guess what...i'm being attacked by chicken pox virus on last Wed, which is also 4th day of CNY, what a day! Well, this wasn't that bad yet...the fear that i am having is, after i got to know that i had chicken pox and at the same time found out that my small little one, 16 mths old daughter yet to get her chicken pox vaccination, what a big DANG for me. So quickly, on last Thursday i send her for chicken pox vaccination, i know it's too late, but what else can i do? That's the only thing that i can do for her, and hoping she will not get the virus from me.

I tried to avoid contact with the 2 kids so much, but, the more u avoid, the more they will come to you. For both kids though. I really feel bad that i need to turn them down when they want to hug me or sometimes they just want to touch me, but i afraid that may broke the blister, so i wont let them touch me either. At night, usually i will let Kaitlyn sleep on my hand, she likes to request me to put my hand on the bed and she sleeps on it. But for these few days, i can't do so, i need to cover myself with the blanket like rice dumpling, then she will sleep on the blanket on top of me. Thank GOD, she is such an understanding girl, she doesn't make lots of fuss when she can't sleep on the same bed with me..however, middle of the night, she will move herself and sleep next to me. **slapped forehead**

As for Kelvin, since he can understand me better than his sister, so i told him i am having "bacteria" on my whole body, so he can't come near me, LOL! And he does whine at night, want me to sleep with him, but after i remind him about the "bacteria" story, he will go to his lala-land happily by himself.

I hope none of the kids will get infected by this chicken pox virus!!!!

my 2 kids

For don't know what reason, my 2 kids seems have very good relation with Ms Goh and uncle James. When Kaitlyn sees uncle James, she will be very excited and she will show the "come, carry me" sign.

But again, with those people who has blood relation, they don't seems bother to know their grandkids progress. Well, maybe they do get update from their son. And one thing that i am SURE is, they NEVR spend any single cent on my 2 kids!ARGH!!!

Even when strangers see my kids, some will play with them. And again, why the paternal grandparents has no feel on them. Maybe like friend said, it's better for them don't come over as me and them do not have any chemistry in between.

Is this what i want?

Recently, i being assigned something new in my job. And things started to change, my nightmare come...

First of all, i being escalated by the customer for no reason...darn
Second, again i bring escalated by the customer for no reason...double darn...
Third, Fourth will be same too....

I really have no idea why that lady keep biting at me. Friend said, maybe she afraid of me will go complain on her, so she complain and back stab me first. Well, frankly, ever since i start to take up this new assignment, i feel very upset, unhappy, and every night i have to work til late night, midnight, and i am working now. While waiting for data loading, i sneak and update my blog. Feel so guilty as i didn't update my kids blog promptly. I will try my best to update theirs.

Usually i will be in the room with the 2 kids, tugging both of them at the same time. One hand hugging Kaitlyn and the other hand pat Kelvin. But for these few night, i need to shut my ears as Kelvin will cry so badly when he doesn't see me in the room when he wants to sleep.While i am typing this, i heard Kelvin crying in the room. But, i can't walk into the room, coz when he sees me, he will cry even louder. so i will leave to hubb to handle him.

As for Kaitlyn, mom needs to help me tug her to sleep. Every night, mom will let her sleep in cradle in her house, then send her home and make sure she's still sleeping when she reached our house so that i can continue to do my work without interruption. And u know what, i used to nurse her before she sleeps, and for these few days, because i am so tight up with my FOREVER unfinished job, so i didn't nurse her, mom bottle feed her and tug her to bed. And i noticed that, for those night that i didn't nurse her before she sleeps, when she wakes up at middle of the night, she will look around as if she is looking for something and when i go near her, she will throw me a SWEET smile middle of the night and continue to sleep. My heart sank when i see her doing so. I feel so guilty.

I am not sure what i should do next!
I am so upset at work, and i am having 2 upset kids at home. All because of me. Sometimes i am so frustrated coz i need to stay late and get my job done and i am so tired, so i will be a bit frustrated when Kelvin wants to play with me. I will just shut him off. I am such a lousy and bad mom! As for hubb, i hardly talk to him nowadays, coz i feel exhausted and tired, and i don't know how and what to tell him. I don't want to bring the unhappiness from work back home, but my face and expression betray me! I am such a lousy wife at the same time too!

PLEASE tell me, what should i do. Seriously, if my company ever offer VSS again, i will TAKE IT without any DOUBT. I am willingly to forgo my pay and what i want is happy life. I am very tired and exhausted. GOD, HELP ME if you HEAR ME!

Keysssss for our new home sweet home!

At last,after long wait, we finally get the keys for our new home sweet home. In fact, all the paper work done by mid of April, however, the previous owner would like to rent the house with us for another 3 months, so since we are not in hurry to move in to the new house, so we rent it out to them.

After 3.5 months, finally we officially get the house key on today, 2nd Aug 2008. Our little one so busy exploring every single corner of the house and keeps going up and down the stairs. My mom said it's a good sign as kid usually very sensitive to new environment, if the small one is happy with the new environment, means the house is good to stay. Well, this is old wive tales, but since no harm to believe it, right? But for me, i am so tired following him up and down the stairs. And imagine, i am carrying a big balloon in front of me and i am so clumsy, going up stairs not so tiring for me, but the going down stairs, geez, i need to balance myself and at the same time hold the little one.

We stayed in the new house for almost 2 hours, then it's time for the little one to take his afternoon nap.

So touched!

Yesterday night when i try to tug Kelvin to bed, he refused to sleep and i asked him,
"Vin, why you don't want to sleep? You want to kiss baby then only sleep?"
To my surprise, Kelvin quickly move himself up from the bed and lean towards my tummy , kiss and pat on my tummy. Then he pointed at my tummy said "baby!" I suddenly feel so touched and want to hug him tight tight!

I've been telling him there is a baby in my tummy, and everytime when i asked him where is the baby, he will point to my tummy and say "baby!" His act make me feel that he is growing up, and he is a big boy now. And hubb told him that he is not a big keke, and he will repeat after hubb, saying "keke!"

Before i told him about the baby in my tummy, everytime when i asked him whether he wants di di or mei mei, he will shake his head, but now, whenever i asked him whether he want di di or mei mei, he will say "mei mei". Anyhow, i don't think he knows what is di di as he is the ONLY boy in the baby class, the rest are mei mei! :)

A scary experience

Yesterday, when i went to toilet in the afternoon, i saw some brownish discharge. Scare me like mad. Fast fast check with 2 friends and hubb to get some advise.

Sasha and Yan's advise is to monitor and see, meawhile hubb's reaction is fast fast call gynea !
Sasha, thanks for the sms. My cellphone out of battery and i am busy catching up my sleep, that's why i didn't reply your sms. Paiseh ya!

I guess could be i sneeze earlier, and it's an unexpected sneeze, so i didn't control myself, and after that i feel my tummy quite tense. And the brownish discharge appear few hours after the sneeze.

Called up my previous gynea and current gynea, both said brownish discharge is ok, as long as it's not spotting or red color. Since both also sing the same song saying brownish discharge is ok, so i just keep telling myself "no worry, Joanne, it's ok!" And both also ask me to monitor and if there is sharp pain then need to them immediately.

You may wonder how come i have 2 gyneas. ok, let me tell you, my previous gynea left the hospital, hospital A, when i gave birth to Kelvin, he joined other hospital, hospital L, and for the first few visits , i went to the new hospital, but somehow i don't quite like the environment in hospital L, prefer the environment in the hospital A. So after discussion with hubb, we decided to switch back to the hospital A. That's why i have 2 gyneas. And the gynea in hospital L doesn't know that i am going back to hospital A to see his colleague.

I monitored and no more brownish discharge so far. Will keep monitor for 1 or 2 days. keep my fingers crossed

Something about Me and HIM

Being tagged by Evan's Mummy to list down 5 things that i draw Terence mad and 5 things that he draw me mad. When i knew she's doing this tag, i told her not to tag me, but since we were friends for sooooo long, so she tends to ignore what i said, and tagged me right after she's done with hers. So nice of her......but then ask me to list down 5 things, so little.....Can i write more?NO WAY, u think i will wash my dirty laundry in public? Hmm, if you wanna know more, then drop my link more frequent ya!

Ok, let me start with 5 things that he draws me mad:-

1. He spends lots of time in the loo. Sometime, i think of putting web cam in the loo to see what he's doing in there. I don't understand how come hubb can read in the loo, it's so uncomfy in there....duh...oh man oh man, i can't understand the reason u spend so much time in there. Maybe you should share your feeling reading in loo with me and "maybe" one day, i may follow you, read in loo! hahaha..hiaks
2. Playing with Kelvin at night. Hubb likes to play with Kelvin on the bed. When our little boy gets excited, he will refuse to sleep. Then, i will in trouble. Coz if Kelvin doesn't sleep, then i can't sleep too!! And me love sleeping soooo much, i can go into my sweet dreamland less than 1 min after i lay on the bed. cool huh!
3. "Hello!!!....wei!!!....."when he's watching TV, he will tend to shut her ears off from me. But, he can hear the TV conversation very well. I think he's imaging himself as one of the actors in the movie, that's why he ignore me!
4. Work work work and work. Long long time ago, before we have broadband at home, both of us rarely work from home after office hours. But now, since we have broadband at home, so most of the time, he will sit in front of computer, work work and work....i know because of me, he has to reach office late and leave office early, but then after office hour, should allocate time for family ,agree?
5. Mumbling to himself. Sometime when i talk to him, he did response back to me, but he's mumbling to himself and i have to "huh? huh? huh?" for several times until i piss off. Nowadays i'm sitting at the backseat with our little prince Kelvin, so whenever he talked to me when we are in the car, i wont be able to hear it clearly as hubb is a soft spoken guy, so i have to listen very hard then only know what he's saying.

Time to list down 5 things that i draw him mad :-

1. "ok boh?" I like to ask for his opinion when come to the time i need to make decision. Or, sometime, in the morning, when i dressed up to go work, i will ask him "ok boh?". When he reply "ok", i will follow by another question "are u sure ok" hahaha...ask him yet still doubt on his feedback
2. Sleep sleep sleep. I LOVE sleeping. I remember. before having Kelvin, i can sleep til lunch time during weekend. Then after lunch, continue to sleep again
3. Leaving my thing everywhere. I tend to leave my thing everywhere, and when i need it, i will ask hubb. And if he doesn't know where i put it, i will complain complain and complain saying he doesn't help me to remember when i put it bla bla bla..and in actual fact, i may forget to let him know where i place those thing though :p
4. Shoes Shoe more and more! "Bb, let's go shopping. I wanna buy shoes!! "Buying shoes is my hobby. When I'm wearing blue dress, i will make sure my shoes is at least blue or white color; when I'm wearing black dress, i will make sure my shoes is black; when I'm yellow dress, i will make sure my show is beige color,etc ; gosh, if u have chance, come to my house and see how i conquer hubb's shoe rack!
5. Shopping !! Can i say most lady like to shop? I am a great shopper! Wherever u bring me to, i will buy something from there. Don't believe, ask my hubby. I can walk into bakery, come out with big and small bag; i can go into small grocery shop, come out with a small bag of something. So, no need to tell when i am in shopping mall!! Of course with lots of lots of big bags!

Phew...took me almost an hr to come out with 5 things for each of us as i need to re-prioritize, re-filter, rethink,re-bla bla bla each points. See, i ter-type 5 things from each of us...so u get to know something about us.

Bb, hope you wont angry with me when u read this blog. Come to think of it, if there is nothing that make each of us mad on each others, then where the spark will comes from, right? No one is perfect in this world, that is why me and you ended up as husband and wife coz we love each other's uniqueness. haha! agree?

Affair

Friend of mine told me that she suspects her hubby cheat on her....and asked for my opinion.

Well well, when come to such serious thing, me out of idea. I don't know how to help her. Seek advise from other friend, and most of them said confront the hubby. But i tell you ya, 99% the hubby will deny...so no point ask. Might as well close one eye pretend know nothing. But, again, how could you pretend?Hard right?

Being a woman is not an easy job, especially for those with kids. You need to act as mummy to your kid, wife and girlfriend to your hubby. Must play multi role..interesting leh!To maintain a family is not an easy job.

Home alone with Kelvin - Day 4

yeah yeah..today is the last day me home alone with Vin boy. Hubby coming back from biz trip...so happy...happy happy happy...:)

I don't have to feel helpless at night when Vin boy make noise;
I don't have to eat lunch or dinner alone;
I don't have to drink milo alone at night before go to bed;
I don't have to bla bla bla......all by myself..

Yippie!!!!

Now i only realise how important my hubby is in my life :)

Hubb eating KFC in Indonesia..hahaha

Hubb called back around 7pm Msia time, he said he is in somewhere where he don't know the name of the place, and guess what?? He is in KFC restaurant!! hahahahahahahahahaha.....eating KFC in Indonesia...cool!! He will call me tonite when he reach Jakarta.

Home alone with Kelvin - Day 2

Yesterday night little Kelvin cry very very teruk and loud and night. Looking for daddy? i think yeap. This little Kelvin, very manja one, especially to the daddy. He will laugh out loud when he sees the daddy.

Hubb called back 3 times...first time is when he reached hotel, second time is after his dinner and third time is before i go to bed, and his supper time. We chatted for a while only.

I hope tonite little Kelvin will be better than yday night. Wish me and little Kelvin luck.

Hope hubb can come back ASAP....so that me and little Kelvin won't miss him for sooooo long....it's many many days and hours, u know!

Hubby check in to Indonesia's Shang-ri La Hotel SAFELY

Finally, after few hours of long waiting, i managed to talk to hubby. Hubb call back around 7:35pm Malaysia time. He is in hotel now. According to him, the security check outside the hotel very tight. When the cab reached hotel, 5 to 6 police checked the car thoroughly. I think they afraid of terrorism. Anyhow, glad that hubb reached the hotel safely.

I passed the phone to Vin boy and he looked puzzle again when he heard hubb's voice over the phone. We talked for a while only as hubb will go for dinner with a colleagues of him who also in Indonesia.

Doubt i will be able to chat with hubb over the net tonite as there is NO Internet connection in the room. The WIFI is only available at the lounge area.Will see how....if not, we will use the convention way, EMAIL.....

Home alone with Kelvin - Day 1

Today is Day 1 me home alone with Kelvin.

We send Terence to airport around 1:10pm today. Kelvin shouted at daddy when he sees him walk away from us. Hmm...wonder how hubby feels huh. This is first time we gotta seperate with one another after Kelvin borned.

Hmm...i will definately miss him, but wonder will he misses us? hmm...mmuuuaaaahhhh from me and Vin boy

Home alone with Kelvin

In 2 more days time, i gotta be home alone with Kelvin. Terence will be going to Indonesia for business trip. This will be the FIRST time me home alone with Kelvin since he's borned. I am not sure whether i can handle Vin boy at night or not as every night, he needs daddy and mummy to sleep beside him for a while, before he decides to sleep. And sometime when he make lots of noise, Terence will be the one "kau tim" him, especially if Vin boy has nightmare and cry out loud.

Wish me luck!